Saturday, November 04, 2006
It's very long since I last posted something. Well, in sch there are many things happen to me. But I didn't really face it till yest when sly chat to mi thru msn. He asks mi what i tot of my class. Well it's obvious that there are many clicks in class. But I’m not in any one of them. I also told him that I don't feel welcome in class. And it's seemed that he's aware of it. Don't say he is e class rep, i think ppl in our class can see it clearly without any hint. So i ask him what he thinks of mi. Well he reply that there's nth wrong with mi but its juz how other perceives to see me... And also said some things to console me in fact. Saying about "i think they tot i wif Eleanor", he asks mi what is about.
Well recently on Mon, we were to choose our grp mem for econs. (Btw Eleanor is a close fren last sem and we did almost all proj together.) I ask her if I can join her grp. But she didn't reply me. So while she was writing the grp on the list, I ask her again. She also didn't reply. So it's like being rejected silently. I ask yt, qp if i can join their grp as max 4 ppl… Only left 3 grps if includes eleanor one. yt, qp gp is one of dem. yt reply don know, i tot u will grp wif eleanor. I said no leh, i ask her she also din reply. and she written her gp and go off liao. So in the end btw mi and jr, they accept me in their grp with nicole. <-- she's another one that was left out due to some proj prob last yr (love to do it her way..) but i think she's smart and daring in all lessons. :) In fact such thing happen is due the last bcs tut argument that we didn't sit down and solve. It started when Eleanor sms mi there's no lesson for bcs. So i'm unsure of it, and started ask ard... they ask mi who said that so i replied that eleanor sms mi that. I did clarify with eleanor is some other gals told her that. But out of a sudden, she msg mi " i'm not scolding you..."and told mi "if you know already why still bother to mi", she even scold "your tr". (Btw this tr is my fav one, so i'll usually side her.) I don't really know what got her freak out so i reply what happen. She didn't reply anyway. But was there in class. Well I guess that either the tr call or did sth to her. Since then, we become not close as b4 anymore. that day in class we did not talk to each other. Though i did sms her and take the initiative to tok to her, it never really help much. As i tot that was sth happen very long ago, when sch term start we would be together again. But i'm wrong. Now you would only see her with serene. Toking about serene... On the recent tue, she saw mi coming twd her direction and at that point eleanor was walking to her too. She told eleanor and make funny look ( closing her eyes and peeping thru it). It simply show that she don wish to see me. But it's doesn't need to be so obvious. Well that seriously hurt me in one way or another. I just smile at them and walk away. Can't possibly say hi ya... Anyway I don wanna give a tot to it, so at that point jus feel sad only. Sly told me to be positive.. I told him i am and will always stay positive. If not, I would be in a black face in class everyday already... He also says that things may not look like what it seems to be. Well i believe and also it's true. As many ppl only look at the surface and dun look in depth. This causes many prob. Anyway aft chatting with Sly i really wanna know what happen on the morning of bcs last tut. However i can't possibly ask the tr so directly. But i got the urge to share with her my prob. So i send her the following msg:- "Actually I think I should not tell you or approach you but to seek my care person for help. I don't wish to make a small matter big. I faced some problems with one of my classmates this sem due to something unsolved last sem. I don't wish to face it or you could say i'm turning away from the problem. But my class rep just have a chat with me. I told him. Even i'm still trying to be positive and always trying to be one, after saying it out, it seriously hurt me. I also didn't expect it would make me feel so terrible now. Sorry but after consulting him, I really have the urge to write to you. Maybe i feel that u are approachable easily here. No need to face you directly. However do help me keep this personal. Thanks."
I know the tr is seldom online on weekends but she would sure see it on mon. Though i dun know what words she would give mi, but just feel like telling her. I also don know if i'm doing the right thing by sending her such msg. Well I really thank Sly for lightening myself and seriously glad to hear that there are ppl that are aware of this. I know one of them is Mesy. --Thanks for your concern (Sly and Mesy)
<~Me & Myself~> wrote on 11/04/2006 11:00:00 AM.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
It's very long since I last posted something. Well, in sch there are many things happen to me. But I didn't really face it till yest when sly chat to mi thru msn. He asks mi what i tot of my class. Well it's obvious that there are many clicks in class. But I’m not in any one of them. I also told him that I don't feel welcome in class. And it's seemed that he's aware of it. Don't say he is e class rep, i think ppl in our class can see it clearly without any hint. So i ask him what he thinks of mi. Well he reply that there's nth wrong with mi but its juz how other perceives to see me... And also said some things to console me in fact. Saying about "i think they tot i wif Eleanor", he asks mi what is about.
Well recently on Mon, we were to choose our grp mem for econs. (Btw Eleanor is a close fren last sem and we did almost all proj together.) I ask her if I can join her grp. But she didn't reply me. So while she was writing the grp on the list, I ask her again. She also didn't reply. So it's like being rejected silently. I ask yt, qp if i can join their grp as max 4 ppl… Only left 3 grps if includes eleanor one. yt, qp gp is one of dem. yt reply don know, i tot u will grp wif eleanor. I said no leh, i ask her she also din reply. and she written her gp and go off liao. So in the end btw mi and jr, they accept me in their grp with nicole. <-- she's another one that was left out due to some proj prob last yr (love to do it her way..) but i think she's smart and daring in all lessons. :) In fact such thing happen is due the last bcs tut argument that we didn't sit down and solve. It started when Eleanor sms mi there's no lesson for bcs. So i'm unsure of it, and started ask ard... they ask mi who said that so i replied that eleanor sms mi that. I did clarify with eleanor is some other gals told her that. But out of a sudden, she msg mi " i'm not scolding you..."and told mi "if you know already why still bother to mi", she even scold "your tr". (Btw this tr is my fav one, so i'll usually side her.) I don't really know what got her freak out so i reply what happen. She didn't reply anyway. But was there in class. Well I guess that either the tr call or did sth to her. Since then, we become not close as b4 anymore. that day in class we did not talk to each other. Though i did sms her and take the initiative to tok to her, it never really help much. As i tot that was sth happen very long ago, when sch term start we would be together again. But i'm wrong. Now you would only see her with serene. Toking about serene... On the recent tue, she saw mi coming twd her direction and at that point eleanor was walking to her too. She told eleanor and make funny look ( closing her eyes and peeping thru it). It simply show that she don wish to see me. But it's doesn't need to be so obvious. Well that seriously hurt me in one way or another. I just smile at them and walk away. Can't possibly say hi ya... Anyway I don wanna give a tot to it, so at that point jus feel sad only. Sly told me to be positive.. I told him i am and will always stay positive. If not, I would be in a black face in class everyday already... He also says that things may not look like what it seems to be. Well i believe and also it's true. As many ppl only look at the surface and dun look in depth. This causes many prob. Anyway aft chatting with Sly i really wanna know what happen on the morning of bcs last tut. However i can't possibly ask the tr so directly. But i got the urge to share with her my prob. So i send her the following msg:- "Actually I think I should not tell you or approach you but to seek my care person for help. I don't wish to make a small matter big. I faced some problems with one of my classmates this sem due to something unsolved last sem. I don't wish to face it or you could say i'm turning away from the problem. But my class rep just have a chat with me. I told him. Even i'm still trying to be positive and always trying to be one, after saying it out, it seriously hurt me. I also didn't expect it would make me feel so terrible now. Sorry but after consulting him, I really have the urge to write to you. Maybe i feel that u are approachable easily here. No need to face you directly. However do help me keep this personal. Thanks."
I know the tr is seldom online on weekends but she would sure see it on mon. Though i dun know what words she would give mi, but just feel like telling her. I also don know if i'm doing the right thing by sending her such msg. Well I really thank Sly for lightening myself and seriously glad to hear that there are ppl that are aware of this. I know one of them is Mesy. --Thanks for your concern (Sly and Mesy)
<~Me & Myself~> wrote on 11/04/2006 11:00:00 AM.